I used to shoplift/steal a lot. Not exactly sure when I started, but by
the time I was 6 or 7 I was pretty good at it and doing it regularly.
Eventually I got caught (funny story, that) and got in lots of trouble.
I
was grounded from my friends for “the rest of my life” and, unlike most
parents who give such punishments, it was enforced. I was moved away
and haven’t seen that group of friends for a long time. I was also put
in the middle of the country where there wasn’t much to take.
So
it tailed off pretty significantly for a while. By the time I was 16 or
17, I was back into the swing of it. Stealing things left and right.
Mostly candy, pens – little things that I wanted and couldn’t afford.
Sometimes, just taking things for the sake of taking them.
Then,
for whatever reason, part way through college, I decided that this was
not a good thing to do any more so I stopped. I returned everything I
still had at the time (anonymously) and resolved not to take anything
else.
The most amazing thing – I went through withdrawl.
Literally getting the shakes when I’d see an easy mark. My adrenaline
would skyrocket, I’d get excited, but no release.
Over time, the symptoms diminished and eventually, they pretty much stopped.
I’m
not 100% clean. Several years ago, I was at a motorcycle show and found
a knife in my pocket that I’d been looking at a few hours earlier.
Didn’t even remember it happening. A couple years ago, I was at REI
spending way too much money and wore out a pair of thermals I couldn’t
justify paying the price for but still wanted. Definitely not perfect,
but MUCH better than I was. Less than once a year, if that.
But
why would it happen at all? Its not like I don’t have enough money to
get what I want (if I plan or budget for it). Its not like what I’m
getting is worth a fraction of the risk – a person of my age getting
caught would go through a very bad time for it. Frankly, its just dumb.
Which brings me to this article.
I know when I was first “quitting”, it felt like an addiction. There’s
some physiological proof that it might be. And, even more interesting,
they’re testing a “cure” for kleptomania.
I’ve always been a bit of a thrill junkie. Perhaps its connected.
Well, in any case, I’m not
signing up for the trial. Its been over a year since I’ve had a lapse,
and while its hard to quit, its not nearly as tough as, say, smoking.
But still, its an interesting thing.
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