August 25, 2005
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After I switch over to LiveJournal, I still intend to maintain my email subscription to Xanga so I can keep up with the people who only post here. The email notification on comments and comment threading on LJ is nifty.
Still feeling a bit light headed…I’m more used to the drastic hair cut, although it is a bit weird when my old habits encounter the new reality.
After sleep and a shower, I’ve come to realize it is a pretty normal haircut. It was just whatever the stylist did with it that made me look like I wanted to be on the TV show Friends. In related news, I’d forgotten about that cowlick on the back of my head. *sigh*
In trying to integrate a bit more meditation and exercise in my daily routine, I’ve discovered a few things:
- My internal alarm clock seems to be working better recently
- I am hellishy out of shape: strength, form, and flexibility are all inexcusably poor.
- My ability to meditate is also “out of shape”. Even attempts at proper deep breathing seemed to catch up on my internals somewhere.
We’ll see how it goes with a bit more work. The odd thing is, I’ve apparently lost a fair amount of weight (clearly from somewhere other than the belly/low back). I’m within 10 pounds of where I was at in college, but distributed far more poorly.
The inability to meditate was the most interesting revelation. I’ve never been able to sit for a long period of time without a fair amount of “work”, but I can generally breathe fairly well. Three to five breathes to relax, and thirty to fifty to get my mind somewhat cleared.
This morning, however, after 10 minutes, I still couldn’t take a proper deep breath. I think this is definitely a sign of carrying some excess tension, but I’m not sure if it means anything more.
On a nicer front, I ate some tomatoes from my garden yesterday and did some pruning and weeding. The fruit was good, and the plants look a bit happier. Gardening almost always helps get me a bit more grounded.
